Scared sh*tless!!!!

[Johnny_H02]

Hey just me coming here to vent again, I just had a giant f'ecking SNAFU!just befor i was going to work for the night, i gota call from this woman who said she was from some emergency alarm center? my grandfather fell and was hitting the button, and they needed someone to respond, so at this time I am ****ting myself? asking "is he ok?" " is there anyone on there way?" I live about a half hour drive away and that is when im in transit, not counting the fact that I was home alone, no car to my name in all it took me almost a hour to get out there.


Even after hearing my uncle say to me that he was ok on my cell i was still scared sh*tless so i went over still, i got over there and he didnt recognise me, i havent seen him in ages at least 6-8months :|, I dunno im kinda on edge right now, I thought once i got back and everything was ok that I would be ok and i could go to work, but right now im just sorta edgy? I mean they kept asking me if i wanted to send a ambulance? on the phone but I had a "Gut" feeling and declined it
( I had a feeling it wasnt going to be that serious just off instinct) :bash:, and i was thinkin after i made that choice "OF F*CK! what if i was wrong?" and i didnt have a call back number so i got out there as fast as i could?

Am i beating myself up or should i be worried about this?
I mean I probley should of sent the ambulance, even if they got there and he was ok? that and i know ambulances cost? and i feel so damn sh*tty for even thinking of the cost? but if they billed me for it? i would be fvcked ide have no way to pay them for it? im thinking like 100 miles a hour here, i know hes ok but im kinda just like i said earlier, edgey.


what do you think?
Am i overreacting? or is this normal?

[EvanL]

Well you shouldn't be worried. You didnt ignore it. And you went out yourself. You still should call an ambulance because they don't cost money to you, but to the province.

[Abolith]

well if he is ok then no harm done. Just have a solid plan in place on the off chance that it happens again.



edit: Like E.L. said next time send the ambulance if it isn't going to cost you cash, better safe than sorry.

[ed316]

you shouldn't worry he's probably ok..you are thinking too much and that makes it worse.

[Johnny_H02]

I didnt know? I literally had no idea?

I mean they billed my mom? when my brother got hit by a car?
And I had a gut feeling that hasnt let me down yet? I cant explain it but Im just happy I didnt fvck up, and that my uncle got to him.

My dad just told me he was over there earlier today and gave him his christmas present which was Navy Pussers Rum, so he figures the not recognising me is cause he was boozed up, and that is why he fell.

Still dosnt make me feel anybetter though?
I think that even though i acted? i still failed on a judgement call. ( not calling for ambulance )

[1Cie GevGn]

I think you were hoping that nothing happened, so you told yourself it wouldn't be necessairy. That's what I think ;)

[yiorgo]

you live a half hour to an hour away and you havent seen him in 6to 8 months?? why?

[Johnny_H02]

you live a half hour to an hour away and you havent seen him in 6to 8 months?? why?
By seen I mean like sat down with him, talked etc.
Hes been by the house more then a few times, and Ive seen him in passing but when he comes over or they go over there to visit I am ethier at work, or out?

If you really must know.

[Beppo]

I always thought health care in Canada was free. I think you're beating yourself up because as you said, you made a "bad call" (this is just my opinion) and that you *should have* let the ambulance go to check on him. Better that they be there and not be needed, than to be needed and not be there.

At this point the only productive thing you can do is not to dwell on the "bad call" you made, but to USE this experience as a lesson to not let something like this happen again in the future.

PS: I also agree that merely "seeing him in passing" is kind of a weak excuse considering how close he lives, but understandable considering you're still young.